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Tonight, a bow comes down off a wall where it has hung at rest through a whole long war, and the strongest young men in a kingdom warm it and grease it and cannot bend it, because strength was never the thing it was waiting for. Tonight a beggar in rags asks to try that bow, and turns it in his hands the way a singer turns a new lyre, and strings it without rising from his stool, and plucks it once, and one clear note answers like a swallow. You will see a single arrow fly clean through the sockets of twelve axe heads set in a row. You will see a house give a wandering king back his name, and then his hall, and then his wife, who will make him prove himself with a bed whose secret is a living tree for a leg, rooted in the island, that no man alive could move. The night is stern for a little while in its middle, and tender to the end.
There is a beach at the edge of the world, and on it there is a fire. It is the same fire, driftwood burning the pale gold of old honey, and the old singer beside it knows you are here by the quiet you brought with you.
The leaves have gone far over now. The tide stands higher on the sand tonight than on the first nights, close and kind. Welcome back, traveler. Your place in the sand is where you left it. And if this is your first night at this fire, be doubly welcome, for the singer never begins a story that will leave a newcomer behind.
Last time, the singer says, I brought the king home into his own hall as a beggar in rags, and the house did not know him. An old dog knew him, and lay down content. An old nurse knew him by a long pale scar, and kept the secret warm. And the queen, who did not know him, decided out of her own wisdom that in the morning the great bow would come out, and the bow itself would choose. Tonight is that morning.
You do not have to do anything now. You do not have to follow every word, or hold any of it until morning. If you drift, the singer will go on without you, and will not mind. Out here, drifting is only another way of listening.
And one thing, whispered across the fire. There is a reckoning in tonight's story. The men who ate this house bare while its king was thought dead are called to account for it, and they die for it, and the fire will tell you that plainly, in a low voice, and stage not one blow of it, and it will be brief, and it will pass. That is the whole of the night's hard weather, and it comes early, and it goes. On the far side of it there is a house swept clean, and a husband and a wife knowing each other again after twenty years, and a bed that could not be moved, and a night the grey eyed goddess made longer, so that two people would have time enough. That is where tonight ends. In peace.
Before the singer begins, one small thing, and then we will not interrupt again. If this story carries you down toward sleep, subscribe now, while your eyes are still open, and the next tale will be waiting for you when you need it, for the fire is nearly at the end of the long way home, and there is one night more after this one. A like helps other tired travelers find this fire on the beach. That is all. Now settle back, and let him begin.
We begin.
Chapter One. The Morning of the Axes.
It was an ordinary looking morning, and it had extraordinary work to do, and it went about that work in the plain way of ordinary mornings, which is that nothing in it looked like what it was.
The light came down the slopes of Ithaca the way it always came, easy and grey and then gold, over the goats on the high ground with their small careless bells, over the harbor where the fishing boats leaned against each other, over the old grey stone of the great hall of Odysseus. Inside, the house woke and set itself in order as it had set itself in order for years now under the wrong hands, the fires lit, the long tables carried in, the wine mixed in the great bowls, the smell of roasting meat beginning to climb the smoke stained walls. And it happened to be a holy day, a feast of the archer god Apollo, whose day it was in that country, so there would be more meat than usual and more wine, and offerings made, and the men who had eaten this house for years were coming in to eat it again in the god's honor. They did not know that this was the last morning of that long meal. They did not know that the god whose feast it was is the god of the far bow, and that a bow was about to be brought down into their midst. Almost no one in the whole story knew what the morning was for. That is one of the quiet mercies of the way it is told. The great day wears the plain clothes of an ordinary one, right up until it does not.
But in the wide hall, before the crowd came, a young man was doing a strange and careful thing, and it is worth watching him do it, for it is the first move of everything.
Telemachus, the son of the house, the boy grown tall and lean in his father's long absence, took a mattock and dug a single long trench down the length of the packed earth floor, one clean straight cut in the ground running from the near end of the hall to the far. And along the whole length of that trench he set up the axes. Twelve of them, the great iron axe heads, the working kind, each with the round socket in its neck where the wooden handle would be driven through, and he stood each one upright in the trench in a dead straight line, one after another, and pressed and stamped the earth firm around the foot of each so that it stood on its own without leaning, and then he went down on one knee at the near end and sighted along the whole row with one eye shut, the way a builder sights a wall, until he was sure the twelve of them stood exactly true. And when he had them right, the twelve round sockets stood open in a single line down the hall, like a row of twelve small windows all looking the same way, so that a keen enough arrow, sent by a strong enough and steady enough hand, might thread the whole row from end to end through every ring in turn without once touching iron.
And here is the detail the old songs are careful to keep, because it is the kind of small true thing that tells you more than a speech would. The boy had never once in his life seen this done. It was an old contest, a game out of his father's time, and his father was the only man who had ever set it up in that hall, long before the boy was born. And yet the boy's hands set the twelve axes straight on the first attempt, dug the trench true, sighted the line clean, tamped each one firm, and when he stood back and looked at his own work a kind of wonder came over his own face, as though his hands had known a thing that no one had ever taught him. The other men in the hall wondered at it too, that a lad who had never seen the game could lay it out so exactly. But the fire has watched a whole season of this family and is not surprised. The blood in him knew the trench. The maker's craft that his father had, and his father's father in the orchard, ran quiet in the son's two hands, and set the axes straight without asking his mind's leave. The fire only notes it, softly, and moves on. There will be time later, before this day is out, for a father to be proud.
And if you had been standing in the doorway of that hall, watching the boy plant twelve iron heads in a long straight furrow and press the good dark earth down firm around each one, you might, for just a moment, have thought of a different kind of planting altogether. An old man on his knees in an orchard on the high ground of that same island, setting young trees in a row in the turned soil, firming the ground about each slender trunk with his two brown hands, and naming each one under his breath as he went, the way another man might count out gold. The son planted iron in the hall the way the grandfather planted saplings on the hill, in a straight and careful line, for a harvest that neither of them named aloud. It is only a small rhyme, and the fire lays it down gently, and lets it be, and goes on.
The trench was dug. The twelve axes stood in their row. The hall filled slowly with the noise and the appetite of men who thought this was a day like all the other days, and called for wine, and settled onto the benches. And up the stairs, in the deep cool quiet of the house, above all that noise, a woman was going to a locked door with a key in her hand, to bring down off its high peg the one thing in all that house that could tell the true king from every false one who had ever sat at those tables. And that is the next thing the fire will show you.
Chapter Two. The Bow Comes Down.
At the very top of the house, up a stair and along a passage, there was a storeroom, and in it the wealth of the household was kept. Gold and worked bronze and grey iron, chests of fragrant clothing folded away in cedar and sweet herbs against the moth, great jars of old oil and old wine standing in rows along the wall, and all the heavy treasure that a rich old house gathers over the long lifetimes of its lords. It was a cool dim room, and it smelled of cedar and of years, and it was always kept locked, and the queen herself kept the key, a fine key of bronze with a handle of carved ivory, and she went up to that room now, alone, with her women waiting back a little way, and she fitted the key into the lock, and drew the bolt.
The old song keeps the small sound of it, and the fire keeps it too, for it is a good sound. When the bolt shot back and she pushed the tall doors open, they gave a low deep groan on their hinges, a heavy sound, like a bull bellowing far off in a spring meadow, the sound a great door makes when it is opened only seldom. And she stepped into the cool dark of the storeroom, and went to the place where it hung, and reached up, and took down the bow. And with it she took down the quiver, the case full of arrows, arrows enough for a long day's grief, though she did not think of it that way, and she did not yet guess what work the morning would ask of them.
You have heard of this bow before, if you have sat at this fire on the older nights. It hung on the wall of that hall through the whole of the war and the whole of the wandering, and it was left behind on purpose when the ships sailed away, and there is a reason it was left, and the reason is a kindness, and the queen turned the whole of it over in her mind now as she stood holding the great curved thing across her two open hands.
It had come to Odysseus, long ago, when he was young, through friendship, which was always the way he loved best to come by anything at all. He had been sent as a young man over to the mainland, to the wide country of Messene, to see about a debt, some hundreds of sheep that raiders from over there had lifted off the island, for such things had to be settled between neighbors in the old world or they festered into worse. And there, in a great house, he had met another young man, a stranger, named Iphitos, who was on an errand of his own, searching the country for some fine mares and their mule foals that had strayed or been driven off from his own lands. And the two young men had taken to each other on sight, all at once and for good, the way it sometimes happens, when you meet a person and some quiet thing in you says, this one, this one is a friend, before you have any reason to know it. And they had exchanged gifts, as friends did in the old world, to bind their two houses together in hospitality forever. Odysseus gave Iphitos a sharp sword and a strong spear, the gifts a warrior gives. And Iphitos gave Odysseus this bow, which had been his own father's before him, a great bow of horn, so heavy in the draw that few men living could bend it far enough to slip the loop of the string over the notched horn at its tip.
He loved that bow. But here is the telling thing about the man, and it was true of him even when he was young. Because he loved it, he did not take it to the war. When the ships sailed for Troy and every other weapon in the house went aboard, the great bow stayed behind, on its high peg, in the dark of the hall, because it was too dear to him and too much his own to carry out into the wide world among strangers, where a thing can be lost, or broken, or left behind in the mud of a far country with no name on it and no one to bring it home. He kept it the way you keep the memory of a friend, safe, and near, and at rest. And so, of all the weapons that house ever owned, this bow alone never went to Troy, never crossed the wide water, never saw one single day of the ten years of the war or the ten more of the road home. It only hung there, quiet, on the wall, all that long time, keeping his place for him, waiting, and it was patient the way he had learned to be patient, the way the island itself had taught them both to be. It hung there, year after year, waiting for a hand it knew.
And the queen sat down on the floor of the storeroom, there in the cedar dark, with the bow lying across her knees, and she wept. She did not entirely know why. She had told herself a hard sensible story about what she was doing, that she was bringing the bow down to be a snare, a clever and impossible test, a thing to set the greedy men against one another and buy her one more turn of the loom, one more delay in a long war of delays she had been fighting alone for years. But the weight of it across her knees was the weight of a man's arm, and once, long ago, she had held that arm, and so she bent her head down over the cold horn and the old smooth wood and she let herself weep over it a while, there where no one could see her, before she was ready to carry it down among all those eyes.
And then she rose. And she did a thing that only her own courage could have done, and the fire wants you to mark it well, because down in the loud crowded hall not one man alive would ever quite understand whose courage had begun the day. She did not send a servant down with the bow. She lifted it herself, the great bow and the heavy quiver both, in her own two arms, and she carried them down the stairs, down out of the sweet cedar dark and into the smoke and the noise and the hungry watching eyes of all those men, and she came and stood before them at the great pillar of the hall with her bright veil drawn across her face, holding her husband's bow like a thing she had made up her mind to give away. And she told them the terms of the contest in a level voice. Here is the great bow of godlike Odysseus, she said. Whoever among you can take it up and string it with his own hands, and send an arrow clean through all twelve of the axes standing there, that man I will go away with, and follow, and leave behind me this house where I came as a bride, this good rich house that I think I will remember even in my dreams. It was the bravest thing done in that hall in twenty years, and it was done by a woman with a bow in her arms and tears not long dry on her face, and not one of the men who heard her had the least idea what he was truly looking at.
Chapter Three. The Contest of the Young Men.
Now the fire will tell you about the young men who tried the bow, and it will tell you fairly, and without any mockery in it, because there is no sport in it for the fire, and the fire takes none.
They were strong, most of them, and there is no use pretending they were not. They were the sons of the near islands and the near coasts, the well born young men of that whole small sea, and they had grown up hunting and wrestling and pulling oars, and they had spent years now fat and idle on another man's herds, and they were used to winning at things. And a bow is only a bow, they thought. A thing of horn and wood and twisted gut. You brace it, you bend it, you loop the string over the horn, you draw. Any strong man can string a bow. They did not yet understand what the fire understands, and what the queen had understood as she carried it down the stairs, that this particular bow was not waiting for strength at all. It was waiting for one particular hand, and it had been waiting a long, long time, and it would know that hand the moment it came, and it would answer no other hand in the world, however broad the shoulders above it.
First to try was a gentle man named Leiodes. He was the reader of signs among them, the one who watched the smoke of the offerings and told the omens, and he sat always nearest the great wine bowl, and his hands were soft and white because he had never in his life done hard work with them. He took up the bow, and he set it properly, and he pulled. And nothing gave. His soft hands had no more hope of bending that horn than a child's would, and he set it down, and he said a true thing that frightened the rest of them. This bow, he said, will break the hearts of the best men here before the day is over, for it is easier to die trying it than to bend it. Better to die, he said, than to live on and keep failing at the thing we all came here for. And they told him roughly to hold his tongue and sit down.
Then there was a sensible idea, and it came from Antinous, who was the worst of them and the loudest, the one who really ruled that ugly company, and the idea was a good one, and it still did not work. Warm it, he said. Grease it. Of course it will not bend cold and stiff. He called for the goatherd to build up the fire and bring a great wheel of hard fat from the stores, and they set the fat by the flames to soften, and they warmed the bow itself at the fire, turning it, and rubbed the melting fat well into the horn to make it supple, the way you would work oil into any stiff old leather to bring it back. And then, warmed and greased, the bow went round the hall again from strong hand to strong hand. And one after another the young men set the tip against the floor and braced a knee into it and hauled with all the strength that was in them, sweating, straining, grunting, going red and then dark in the face with the effort, the whole honest force of big young men who badly wanted to win. And one after another the great bow stood unbent in their grip, and the string never came within a hand's breadth of the horn. It was not that they were weak. The fire says this plainly, so that you never once mistake it for a story about weaklings. They were strong. It was only that the bow was not for them, and no warming at the fire and no straining of the back could ever change whose hand it was keeping itself for.
And Eurymachus, who was one of the two best of them, when the bow had beaten him too, did not curse or bluster over it. He grieved. He held the great thing in his hands a moment longer, and said a sorrowful and honest thing. It was not the marriage he mourned the most, he said, for there were other women in the world, and other islands. It was the shame of it. That they, the pride of all that coast, should be shown so far weaker than godlike Odysseus that not one of them could so much as string his bow. That, he said, was a thing men would tell of them for years to come, to their disgrace. And the fire lets him have his grief, and does not laugh at him for it. For even among the wasters there was one who could feel, at the very end, the true size of the man they had all long ago decided was safely gone from the world.
And there was one more who very nearly did it, and this is the tender moment folded inside the chapter, and you may hold it lightly and let it drift on by.
The boy tried. Telemachus, the son of the house, stood up laughing and said that surely he, as the young master, had the right to try his own father's bow before he stood by and watched his mother carried off by a stranger. And he set the great bow's tip against his foot, and he pulled, and to the astonishment of every man there the bow began to give. Once he strained at it, and it bent a little. A second time, and it bent further. A third time, and the hall went quiet, because the string was coming close now, close to the horn, and the beardless boy who had strung nothing in his life was about to string the very thing the strongest of them could not budge. And on the fourth pull, the old song says plainly, he would have done it. He would have bent it home and looped the string and shamed the whole crowd of them.
But across the hall, from among the beggars by the door, an old ragged stranger caught the boy's eye, and moved his head. Once. Very slightly. No. Not you. Not now. And the boy, who by now knew exactly who that stranger was, let his breath go, and eased the great bow gently down out of the bend, and made a light show of it, laughing at himself, saying that he must be a weakling after all, or too young yet, that his arms had not their full strength in them, and that an older and better man had best take the thing and try. And he stood the bow up against the doorpost, and leaned the arrow beside it, and stepped back to his place. And so the whole shape of the day passed on by a single hair's breadth, because a father shook his head once, and a son was wise enough, in that one held moment, to obey him without a word, and to hide his obedience inside a joke.
Chapter Four. The Two Herdsmen in the Yard.
While the young men were still passing the bow from hand to hand and warming it at the fire, two men slipped quietly out of the hall into the courtyard, and the ragged stranger, who missed nothing, rose from his place by the door and went out after them into the light.
They were the two herdsmen, the two truest men in the whole household. Eumaeus the swineherd, up at whose poor high farm the beggar had first been taken in and fed and lent a cloak against the rain. And Philoetius the cowherd, the man who ferried the cattle over from the mainland pastures and had come to hate, more each year, every mouthful the wasters took of beasts he had raised. And out in the yard, away from the noise, the old stranger found the two of them with wet eyes, for they had watched the great bow come down into the hall in the queen's own arms, the master's bow, the bow that no false hand could bend, and the sight of it had opened the old grief in them both, twenty years of a good king gone, and a good house eaten alive in front of them, and nothing they could do. They were weeping over it, the two loyal men, quietly, out there in the yard where the proud young men inside would not see them and jeer.
And the old stranger asked them a plain question, and it was a test, though he framed it so gently it did not sound like one. Tell me, he said, as one poor man to two working men. If Odysseus were to come home now, this very day, come walking up from the sea out of nowhere after all these years, which side would the two of you take? His, or the side of the men in that hall? Speak your true hearts.
And they did not hesitate for a breath. They said the thing they had said in their hearts every day for twenty years. That they prayed for it, morning and evening. That if some god would only bring the master home, the wasters would learn very quickly what strength was still left in a swineherd's arms and a cowherd's. And the old man looked at the two of them a moment, and knew them true, all the way down, and set the last of his disguise aside the way a man sets down a heavy pack at the end of a long road.
Then look here, he said. It is I. I am home. In the twentieth year, after much suffering, I have come to my own country. And when they only stared, not daring, not able to believe it, he gave them the one proof that no lie in the world could ever carry. He drew back the rags from his leg and showed them the long pale scar above the knee, the old mark the wild boar had torn into him on the mountain when he was a boy, the very scar the old nurse's hands had found by the fire only the night before, the scar that never once lied. And the two herdsmen knew it, for they had known the boy who took it, and they knew then, past all doubting, that their king was standing in his own courtyard, and they broke, both of them, and threw their arms around him and wept, and he held them, and hushed them, gently, quickly, so that no one inside the hall would hear, for the hour was not yet quite come.
And he made them a promise there in the yard, quick and warm, to seal the thing between them. If the gods brought the proud men down this day, he said, then he would give the two of them wives, and goods of their own, and good houses built close beside his own, and he would hold them from that day forward as companions to his son, and as brothers in all but blood. They had kept faith through twenty empty years, when faith cost them everything and earned them nothing at all, and he would not forget it, and they would not be servants to him after this, but kin. And they heard it, and stood a little taller, two plain working men promised a place at the hearth of the house they had never once dreamed of leaving.
Then he told them what he needed, low, in few words, because there was little time. When the moment came, he said, and the bow was in his hands at last, Eumaeus was to be the one to carry it down the length of the hall and put it into his grip, whatever the others shouted or threatened, and then to go straight to the women's quarters and have the doors there shut and bolted fast, so that whatever noise rose in the hall the women would keep to their rooms and be safe and out of it. And Philoetius was to slip out and bar the great outer gate of the courtyard, and lash it shut with a stout rope, so that no man could bolt out of the hall to run and raise the town against them, and no man from outside could come in. Two doors. Held by two true men. And then the four of them, the king, the boy, the swineherd, and the cowherd, would be enough for what had to be done.
And the fire counts them for you now, plainly, so that you know the true strength of that house on that morning. Two herdsmen. One young son. And one king who could still, after everything, string a bow no other hand alive could bend. Four men, against a whole hall full of the strong and the proud and the well fed. Four, against all of them. And the fire tells you now, before you have even the chance to begin to fear it, that four was enough. Because the house had help that morning that no eye in the room could see. And because the day belonged, from the very first straight axe planted in the trench, to the men who were in the right.
Chapter Five. The Beggar Asks for the Bow.
Back inside, the bow had gone all the way round the hall and beaten every single hand that had touched it, and the young men were sullen now, and uneasy, and their pride was raw, and Antinous, to save the whole company from the shame of the day, said that they should let the contest wait until tomorrow. It was the feast of Apollo the archer, after all, he said, the god's own holy day, and no fit day for men to be straining and sweating at a great bow. Let them pour out wine to the god now, and set the bow aside, and make their offerings, and come back to it fresh in the morning with rested arms. And the others were quick and glad to agree, because agreeing let them stop losing.
And then the old beggar by the door spoke up. He asked, humbly, in the careful wheedling voice of a man who has learned the hard way how to ask strangers for things, whether he might perhaps have a turn at the bow himself. Only to try the old strength of his arms, he said. Only to learn for himself whether there was anything left in them of what there used to be, in the days before his hard luck and his begging.
Well, the whole hall was outraged. That a filthy vagrant, a nobody, a man who had begged his bread from table to table among them, should dare to think of laying so much as a finger on the great bow, after they, the flower of the islands, had all failed at it, was more than their pride could bear, and they shouted him down, and Antinous cursed him and warned him roughly to be still and be grateful he was allowed to sit among his betters at all. But up on the stair the queen had heard, and she came down a step, and she spoke for the stranger, and this, though she had no way of knowing it, was the very last gift she would ever give her husband without knowing him, and it was a fine one.
Let him have the bow, she said, and let us see. What is it you are all so afraid of? Do you truly imagine that if this old wanderer somehow manages to string my husband's bow, he means to carry me off across the sea and take me home as his bride? Surely not one of you is so frightened of a poor traveler as that. And Eurymachus, the smoothest of them, answered her, and gave away the small mean thing at the center of the whole crowd. It is not that, lady, he said. It is not that we fear he would wed you. It is what men would say of us. That the fine young lords who courted a great queen could not string the bow that some passing beggar strung with ease. The shame of the talk. And the queen looked at him, and said, cool and clear, that men who devour a good man's house and dishonor it have already lost any fair name they might have feared to lose, and that they might as well let the stranger try. There was a fine cold edge under all her courtesy, and it was the same veiled cleverness she had always had, the same quiet strength that had once chosen a husband with only the falling of a veil and no word spoken at all, turned now, without her knowing it, to the defense of the very man she had chosen, standing there in rags by his own door.
And then her son did a thing that told her, more surely than anything else could have, that he was no longer the child she had raised. Gently, but with a new hard iron running under his voice, Telemachus told his mother that the bow was his affair now, a man's affair, the business of the master of this house, and that she should go back up to her own rooms, to her loom and her spinning and her women, and see to her own work, and leave the men to see to the bow. He said it kindly enough. But he said it as a man says a thing that he means to be obeyed. And she looked at him, and heard the whole change in him in those few words, and under her surprise, she was proud. And she went. She gathered her women about her and climbed the stairs to her high chamber, and there she wept for her husband, for Odysseus, the same as she had wept every day of the twenty years, and there the grey eyed goddess did her one small mercy of the morning, and cast a sweet sleep down over the queen's eyes, so that she lay back and slept.
And the fire wants you to know that, and to take it for your own if you like it. The queen slept. Everything that came next, the whole hard middle of the day, and then the long slow tender turning of it toward joy, all of it happened while she rested upstairs in the keeping of the goddess, and she did not have to see the worst of it, and she would be woken only when the danger was over, all the way over, and there was nothing left in the house to meet but gladness. If you are tired now, traveler, you are in the very best of company. You may rest with her. The fire will keep the watch for both of you, and wake you, as it will wake her, only for the good part.
Chapter Six. The Singer Strings the Bow.
So the bow came to him at last.
Eumaeus took it up, through all the shouting, and carried it down the length of the hall, and put it into the hands of the beggar by the door, exactly as he had been told, and then went out, as he had also been told, to see the women's doors shut and bolted fast. And outside in the yard, quietly, unheard in all the noise, Philoetius barred the great gate and lashed it with a ship's rope and came back in and took his place. The two doors were held. And the old man in his rags sat there on his low stool with the great bow at last in his two hands, and every soul in that hall, without knowing why, leaned a little toward him.
And here the fire slows down, and gentles its voice, because this is the moment the whole long season has been walking toward, all the way from the first night, and it is not a moment of force at all. It is a moment of skill, and of quiet, and it is the most beautiful thing in the whole of the old poem, and any singer loves it above almost anything, for it is a singer's own moment, a great bow strung as easily and truly as a man strings a lyre before a song.
The man turned the bow over slowly in his hands. He looked at it the way a craftsman looks at a fine old tool that has come back to him after long years, this way, and that way, easily, taking his time, in no hurry at all, testing the spring of the horn, running his fingers along the wood to feel for any hidden place where the years, or the worms in the wall, might have eaten into its strength while it hung there waiting. The proud young men watched, and some of them jeered, saying look at the old beggar, look how he fingers it, a great judge of bows he must be, or else he means to make one of his own at home. He paid them no mind at all. He was listening to the wood with his hands. And when he was fully satisfied that it was sound, that the long wait had not weakened it, he did the thing that not one of them could do, and he did it sitting down, without effort, without so much as rising from the little stool.
As a man who knows the lyre and the craft of song, the old poem says, and the fire says it after, stretches a new string upon its peg, hooking the twisted sheep gut over the notch at the one end, and drawing it easily, truly, home to the other, so, with just that small practiced motion, that unhurried turn of a strong wrist, Odysseus bent the great bow and slipped the loop of the string over the horn. That was all. No strain. No braced knee, no darkening face, no grunting, no sweat. A singer quietly stringing a lyre before a song. The strongest young men in the whole kingdom had warmed it and greased it and heaved at it until their hearts nearly burst in them, and the ragged old stranger on the stool strung it the way you would tune an instrument in the moment before you begin to play, because that, to him, was all it was, and that, under the rags, was what he was.
And then he took the strung string in his right hand, and he plucked it, once, to try the truth of it, the way you sound a new string to hear if it will sing clean. And it sang. It sang out clear and high under his hand, one pure carrying note across the whole silent hall, and the old poem, which never wastes a word, says only that it was like the voice of a swallow. A small clear cry, like the first swallow of the returning year. And in that one instant the color of everything in the room changed. The jeering stopped. And far off outside, out over the dark sea, there came a low roll of thunder down a clear and cloudless sky, small, and distant, and deep, like the weather itself quietly agreeing to something, a sign sent from the great god who watches over such moments. And the man who had been Nobody in a giant's cave, and a beggar at his own tables, and a nameless stranger asleep on his own shore, sat there holding a strung bow that had just sung, and the young men who had mocked him a moment before went pale, one after another, all down the hall, as the truth began to arrive in the room a little ahead of the words for it.
The bow was strung. After twenty years, it had found the one hand it had hung on the wall waiting for. And there was one thing left to do with it before it was ever set down again, and there was one arrow already lying chosen and ready on the table by his hand.
Chapter Seven. The Arrow Through the Twelve.
He did not stand up even now. He did not make a speech, or a boast, or give the men one moment's warning. He reached out one hand and took up the single arrow that lay bare and ready on the table beside him, while all the rest still stood waiting in the quiver at his feet. And he fitted the notch of it to the singing string, and there, still seated on the low stool where only that morning he had begged his bread, he drew it back, string and arrow, right to his hand, and he sighted down the long straight trench where the twelve axes stood in their dead straight row, their twelve round sockets open in a line, one behind another, all the way down the hall.
And he loosed it.
The arrow went straight down the length of the hall, and through the first ring, and through the second, and through the third, and on, and on, clean through every one of the twelve, through all twelve sockets in their long true line, and out the far end of them, and it did not so much as brush the iron once. Not one of the twelve. The heavy bronze tipped arrow passed through all twelve axe heads as though the whole row of them had been a single open doorway standing there in the air, and struck home in the far wall beyond, and the deed that the strongest young men in all that country had not been able even to begin was finished by a seated beggar in one single quiet breath.
And for one long moment, nobody in the hall moved at all. It was the silence of men whose eyes have seen a thing that their minds have not yet caught up to.
Then the old man spoke, low, to his son, not turning his head. Telemachus, he said, your guest here has not shamed you, sitting in your hall. I did not miss the mark. And I strung the great bow with no long labor. My strength is still my own, whatever these men have said of me. And even as he spoke it he gathered the rags up in one fist and rose to his full height off the stool, and let the beggar's disguise fall away back off his shoulders, and with the strung bow in his hand he sprang up onto the broad stone of his own threshold, and poured the swift arrows out of the quiver onto the ground before his own feet, where his hand could reach them. And he was a beggar no longer. He was the master of that house, home after twenty years, standing tall in his own doorway with a bow that sang in his fist. And the boy Telemachus was already moving to his father's side, a spear in his hand and a sword at his hip and a bronze helmet on his head, and the two herdsmen were closing in quietly from the flanks, and every door in that room was shut and held.
And the place he had chosen to stand was itself a kind of wisdom, the last quiet cleverness before the loud part, for the great threshold stone was narrow, and a man who holds a narrow doorway holds it against many, since only so many can come at him at once across a narrow place. He stood up there above them all with the strung bow in his hand and the swift arrows poured out ready at his feet, and his son at his shoulder, and his two true men at the flanks, and every door of the hall shut fast. And for one long held breath nobody in all that crowded room moved at all. Because the truth had arrived now. Fully. Standing in the doorway with a bow. Ahead of anything at all that anyone could do about it.
The season has carried one single quiet thread of held tension all the way to this exact point, the long held breath of a whole house that did not know its own king, a man walking these last nights among his enemies with his true name still hidden inside his mouth. And here, in the seventh chapter of the twelve, right at the balance point of the night, that long breath is finally let out. The name is spoken. The bow is strung and singing. The rags are off. Whatever else must now happen in that hall is no longer, in any way, in doubt, and the fire has told you plainly, from the very opening of the night, exactly how it goes, and that it is brief, and that it passes, and that the night is going somewhere gentle on the far side of it. The waiting is over. What comes next comes quickly, and the fire will tell it to you in exactly the way it has promised all night to tell it. Plainly. In a low voice. And then it will set it down.
Chapter Eight. The Reckoning.
The fire will tell this part the way it tells every hard thing. Truly, and plainly, and low, and only once, and then it will set it down.
Antinous, the worst of them, the one who had led the eating of the house, was lifting a golden cup of wine to his lips. He never drank it. The first arrow crossed the hall, and Antinous fell, and the cup dropped from his hand. A man with a wine cup, and then a man fallen, and the cup on the floor. The old poem keeps the picture just that plain, and so does the fire.
The others sprang up shouting, and for a moment thought it an accident, a beggar's clumsy shot, and looked round the walls for weapons and found the walls bare. And then the man on the threshold told them who he was, and why, in a voice gone low and level and grave. You dogs, he said. You told yourselves I would never come home from Troy. And so you ate my house, and courted my wife while I was still alive in the world, and feared neither the gods above you nor any justice of men to come. Now the debt is called.
Eurymachus tried to buy the morning back. He offered gold, full restitution, every man to pay back all he had eaten and twenty oxen more besides. And it was refused. Some debts, the fire says, are not owed in gold, and both men knew it, and the offer died in the air.
And then the suitors fought. The fire will not pretend that they did not. They found what weapons they could, and they were many, and at the end they were not cowards, and they fought for their lives with all they had. And it did not save them. The doors were held by the four true men, and the grey eyed goddess was there above the hall, though the fire will not stage her, only name her, for the house had help that morning that no eye could see. The fight was real. It went one way. By the end of that morning every man who had eaten the house bare was dead, and the old poem says so, and so does the fire, in a low voice, and it stages not one single blow, and it is done.
And now the chapter turns, and goes where it was always going. Not to the killing, but to the after of it. The quiet. The setting of a house back to rights.
The fallen were carried out and laid down decently together in the yard, side by side, as even fallen men are owed. And old Eurycleia came in, and saw the wasters down and the master standing, and began to raise a shrill cry of triumph. And the man himself stopped her, gently, and at once. Keep your joy in your heart, old woman, he said, but hold your cry. It is not holy to glory over slain men. And she swallowed her triumph, and kept only her gladness, which was allowed.
Two men were spared, and both by name. Phemius the singer, who had made his music for the wasters only because they forced him, begged for his life, and the master spared him, for it is a fearful thing to cut down a singer, whose gift is from the gods and whose songs outlive every hall that hears them. The man spared the singer. The fire has never forgotten it. And Medon the herald, kind to the boy Telemachus in the old days, was found hiding under a chair wrapped in an oxhide, and the boy spoke for him, and he too was spared for his old decency.
And there is one sentence more, and to leave it out would be a kind of lie, so the fire will say it once, gravely, and will not describe it, and will not defend it, and will let it lie where it falls. The twelve serving women of the house who had gone over to the suitors were put to death that day as well. The old song says so. The fire has said it. It says no more.
That is the whole of the reckoning. It came, as the fire promised at the start of the night, and it was plain, and it was brief, and it is over. Nothing that follows in this long night will rise or startle again. From here the sentences grow short, the light grows soft, and the story goes home.
Chapter Nine. The House Made Clean.
The first thing he asked for was not a throne. It was fire, and clean smoke.
But before the smoke, there was water, and plain honest work, and the fire likes to show you that too, because there is a mercy in it. The long tables were washed down, every one, with water and sponges, and wiped dry. The benches were washed. The earth floor of the great hall was scraped, and swept, and made new. The good women of the house went about it quietly, setting the room to rights the way a house is set to rights after any long and difficult day, and the hands did the work, and the hearts steadied while the hands worked. That is a thing worth knowing. When something hard is over, the first kindness is often a bucket and a cloth, and a floor swept clean.
And only then the smoke. Bring me sulphur, old woman, he said to the nurse, the pale stuff that cleanses, and bring a brazier of fire, so that I may purify the hall. And she brought it to him. And he set the pale sulphur smoking on the coals, and he carried the little fire through the whole of the house, through the great hall, and the store, and out around the yard, so that the sharp clean old smoke of it went into every corner, and up into every smoke stained beam, the way you smoke a room in the spring to make it new. It is a very old rite. It is a very homely one. And it was exactly the right thing to do, and there is something in the doing of it that steadies the heart, even now, even in you. A man does not sit straight down in triumph in a house that badly needs airing. He opens the doors first. He lets the smoke and the sea wind blow the bad years out of it.
And the doors and the windows were opened wide. And the cool night air came in off the water, salt and clean, and moved through all the rooms that had been shut and sour for so long, and the whole house took one long slow breath, the first easy breath it had drawn in years.
And then the women came down. The loyal ones. The good women of the household who had grieved all this long time, and served in fear, and kept faith through all of it. Eumaeus had unbolted their doors, and now they came down the dark stairs with little lamps in their hands, small flames coming down through the dark, and they saw the master of the house standing alive in the middle of it, home at last, the thing they had prayed for and long ago stopped daring to pray for. And they lost themselves. They crowded in around him with their lamps, laughing and crying both at once, and took his hands and kissed them, and kissed his head, and his shoulders, welcoming him home the way you welcome back a man from the dead. Which, to them, was exactly what he was.
They were many, the faithful women of that house. They had been shut away in their rooms through the whole hard morning, hearing only the noise of it, and never the meaning. Now the doors stood open. The fear was over. They came to him one at a time. They wept. He was thin, and grey, and worn to the bone by the long road, and they knew him anyway, every one of them, the way you know a face you loved before it aged. And he let them come. He named them, the old household names, one by one. And it was the first easy joy that house had held in twenty years.
And the old song keeps the smallest and truest thing of all, and the fire keeps it too. The man who had come dry eyed through the giant's cave, and the country of the dead, and the drowning of every friend he had in the world, the man who had not once let himself weep through any of it, stood there now in the middle of all those weeping, laughing, lamplit women who had waited for him, and felt a sweet warm longing rise in his own throat to weep. Because his heart knew every one of them. He was home. The house was clean. And the one hard thing that was left to do in all the world was to climb a single flight of stairs, and stand before the one person who had waited the longest of all, and who had learned, in twenty hard years, to believe nothing at all until she was sure.
Chapter Ten. Come and See.
The old nurse went up the stairs as fast as her old legs would carry her, stumbling in her hurry, laughing and weeping both together, to wake the sleeping queen.
Wake up, she said. Wake up, dear child, and come down, and see with your own two eyes the thing you have longed for all these years. Odysseus is here. He is home. He has come home at last, and he has dealt with the men who ate your house. Come and see.
And the queen woke, and did not believe her. Of course she did not. Only think what believing it would have cost her. For twenty years she had held herself together by the hard practice of not hoping, by turning away every rumor, and every trader's clever tale, and every smooth stranger who came to her door with news of a living husband, because each false hope had been a small death, and she had died enough of those small deaths to last a life. The nurse must be mad, she said. Some god has turned your wits, old woman. Do not mock me out of my sleep. And even when the old woman swore to it, and swore by the scar, the queen came down the stairs slowly, wary to her very fingertips, and crossed the hall, and sat herself down across the fire from the ragged stranger, and looked at him a long while in the firelight, and said nothing at all.
And this is the truest and gentlest thing, and the old song keeps it, and the fire keeps it too. She could not read him. She sat there and studied his face across the fire, and there were moments when she seemed to know him, when something in the set of his eyes was her husband, plain and sure. And then he would move, or the firelight would shift, and the poor beggar's rags would be all she could see, and the certainty would slip away from her again like a fish out of the hand. Now she knew him. Now she did not. Twenty years is a long time to hold a face. She turned it this way and that in her mind, patient, unwilling to be wrong, saying nothing, while her son watched her and grew impatient at the door of his own heart.
And here the fire is going to defend her, before anyone at any fire anywhere can grow the least bit impatient with her, because she has earned that defense ten thousand times over. She sat there silent, searching his face, and her own son, young and hot and full of the day, thought her cold, and said so, and said that her heart was harder than a stone, that no other woman alive would sit so far from her own husband after twenty years apart. But the fire is on her side, and always has been, and it will say so out loud. This was not coldness. This was the deepest and truest fidelity there is. She had been lied to by clever men her whole grown life, a whole hall of them, wanting her, flattering her, tricking her, wearing at her, and she had outlasted every single one of them by being the one thing that none of them could ever get past, which was careful. Her caution was not the enemy of her love. Her caution was her love, standing armed at the door of it. A king's ghost, in a dark meadow far down the road of this season, had once said of her to her wandering husband that her heart was true, truer than most. And here, now, was the living proof of it, sitting quiet and straight backed by her own fire, refusing to be fooled even by her own joy, even now, even by the one thing she had wanted most in all the world. And she said as much, quietly, to her son, when he chided her. Do not be angry with me, she said. If this man is truly Odysseus, come home, then he and I will know each other well enough, and better than well, for there are secret signs between us that we two know, and no one else in all the world, not one living soul besides us. Let us be. And the old ragged stranger, hearing that, only smiled to himself, a small private smile in the firelight, and told the boy to leave his mother be, and let her try him however she liked, and take her own good time about it. He was not troubled. He knew what she meant. He knew there was a sign between them that no beggar and no liar and no clever stranger could ever have, in twenty years or a hundred, and he knew she was about to reach for it. She would know him her own way, in her own time, by a proof that no counterfeit who ever lived could match. And she already knew, sitting there, exactly which proof she would use.
Chapter Eleven. The Bed That Could Not Be Moved.
Before ever she sprang it, though, there was one small clever thing to see to, and even here, at the tenderest turn of the whole long story, the man's quick mind was quietly at work, because it could not help itself, and because it was right. Down in the town, the ordinary people did not yet know that their sons and their brothers lay dead up in the hall on the hill. When they learned it, there would be grief, and grief can arm itself and come looking, and that is a matter for another night and another morning, not for this one. So, to buy a little quiet time, he did a light and cunning thing. He had the spared singer take up his lyre again and strike a merry tune, and he set the whole household stepping and dancing to it, so that the sound of music and dancing feet came pouring out of the great house into the evening. And any neighbor passing along the road below, or any traveler, hearing that, would only smile, and nod, and say to himself, so, the queen has chosen a husband at last, after all these years, and think no more about it, and carry no alarm home into the town. A false wedding song, to cover a true homecoming. It was exactly the sort of quiet trick he had always been best at in the world, and it worked, and the town slept on that night, unknowing.
And then he was bathed. The housekeeper bathed him, and rubbed him with sweet oil, and dressed him in fresh clean clothes, and the grey eyed goddess did one last small kindness and poured grace down over him, so that he came back into the firelight taller, it seemed, and stronger, his own true self again, the beggar's grey weariness all washed away, looking at last the way a certain woman across the fire had spent twenty years remembering him. And he came, and sat down once more facing her, made new. And still she waited, and watched. And so, at last, she sprang it.
She turned, still calm, still watching his face, and she spoke past him to the old nurse, as if it were the most ordinary bit of housekeeping in the world.
Eurycleia, she said. Make up the great bed for him, outside the bedchamber, the good strong room that he built with his own hands. Carry the bed out here, and lay it with fleeces and blankets and bright rugs, so that the stranger may sleep warm tonight.
It was a trap. And it was baited with the one secret in all the world that only two living people had ever known. And he walked straight into it, because he could not help himself, because it touched the thing in him that was most deeply and truly his own.
Woman, he said, and there was a flare in his voice now, a real hurt in it, who has moved my bed? Who has done this thing? That bed cannot be moved. No man alive could move it, not the strongest of them, not unless a god came down and lifted it, for I built that bed myself, with these two hands, and I built it around a living thing. There was a young olive tree growing in the courtyard when I raised our chamber, its trunk already grown thick and strong as a pillar, rooted deep and fast in the earth of the island. And I did not cut it down. I built the four walls of the room up around it. I roofed the whole over. I hung and fitted the doors. And only then did I turn to the tree itself, and trim away its branches, and cut the long trunk off clean above the roots, and square it true with my tools, and smooth it, and bore it, and make of that rooted, living trunk the one great corner post of our marriage bed, still joined at its foot to the deep ground of Ithaca. And around that fixed green corner I built the rest of it, and inlaid it with silver and gold and ivory, and stretched the ox hide straps across it. So the bed can never be carried anywhere at all, because one leg of it is a tree that goes down into the very bones of the island. Unless some man has taken an axe to the root of it, our bed stands exactly where it has always stood. So tell me. Who has moved it?
And that was the secret. That was the thing that no beggar could ever have known, and no clever stranger could ever have guessed, and no false husband in twenty long years of false husbands could ever once have said. She had kept it locked away inside herself the whole time, as her last sure and certain key, the one lock no counterfeit could ever pick. And now she had heard it spoken back to her, whole, and exact, and warm, by the man across the fire, the only other living soul on the whole earth who had ever known it, spoken with the very heat and hurt of the man who had once knelt in the wood shavings and made it. And her knees went loose beneath her. And her heart let go, all at once, of twenty years of holding on. And she rose up, and ran to him across the hall, and threw her white arms around his neck, and kissed his face, and could not let go of him.
And when she could speak at all, she told him why she had held back so long, and it is worth hearing, because it is the last word in her defense, spoken in her own voice. Do not be angry with me, she said, do not hold it against me that I did not run to you the moment I saw you at the fire. My heart has been afraid for twenty years. Afraid that some man would come to me one day with a stranger's face and a clever tongue, and deceive me, and take from me the last thing I had kept. For the world is full of men who would do exactly that, and I could not let myself be fooled. Not in this. Not ever. But now you have told me the secret of our bed, which no other living soul has ever known, only you and I, and now my heart believes you, and is not afraid. And he wept to hear it, holding her, for he of all men understood exactly what it costs to keep watch that carefully, for that long, and never once be caught.
And the old song has its own way of telling her joy, and it is the most beautiful thing in the whole poem, and the fire will keep it whole for you. It says that he was as welcome to her, in that moment, as the dry land is welcome to men who are swimming for their lives. Sailors, it says, whose good ship the sea god has smashed to pieces far out on the open water, driven under by the wind and the swell, and only a few of them have struggled up out of the grey sea and swum, crusted with brine, toward the shore, half dead, with almost no hope left in them. And then the land is there. Solid, and dark, and real, and close. And they set their feet on it, glad past all telling to have escaped the water. As welcome as the land is to those few worn swimmers, so welcome to her was the sight of her own husband, and she could not take her arms from around his neck. And you will feel the whole of the season fold itself into that one image, if you let it, here at the end. For this is a story that has watched the sea take everything, ship after ship, and friend after friend, down into the grey water. And here, at the very last, the sea gives its own picture back, turned all the way around, so that the thing that drowned so many becomes, now, the way we say a faithful wife's joy at a husband home from the dead. The two of them stood there in the firelit hall and held on to each other, and wept, and the danger was over, all the way over, and there was nothing left in the whole wide world for either of them to prove.
Chapter Twelve. Goodnight. And the Night the Goddess Made Longer.
Now the grey eyed goddess did a kind thing. It was the last work of the long day, and it was all gentleness.
She saw the two of them standing there, home in each other's arms at last, with twenty years to tell each other and only the one night to tell it in. And so she held back the dawn. Far out at the edge of the world, where the sun climbs up out of the deep river of Ocean, she stayed the bright horses of the morning under the rim of the sea, and would not let them rise, and would not let the day begin. And the long night grew longer. And longer. As long as it needed to be. The whole turning world waited there on its dark edge, patient, so that two people could have time enough.
And they went up together at last to the bed that could not be moved, the bed rooted down into the island, and they lay down in it. And before they slept, they talked. All night, in the warm dark, they talked. And the fire will give you the shape of that talking now, softly, the way you give a drowsy child the last quiet list of the day before sleep.
She told him her twenty years first. She told him what it had been to hold a whole house alone against a crowd of hungry men, year upon year, with a growing boy to keep safe and a watching kingdom waiting to see if she would break. She told him of the great shroud she had set upon her loom, and wove by day, and quietly unwove again by lamplight, three long patient years of that one clever trick, to keep the wasters waiting. And he listened to all of it, and knew, hearing it, that her long war had been every bit as long as his own, only quieter, and lonelier, and fought in one house instead of over half a sea, and that she had won it. And then it was his turn.
He told her everything. He told it all to her, in order, the whole long road, the whole way home. And you have heard every step of that road yourself, at this fire, night upon night upon night. And so now you may hear it once more, all of it together, small, and far away, and finished, the way you remember a long hard journey once you are safely and warmly home from it.
He told her of the giant in the cave at the edge of the world, and the name he set down at the door to save his life. He told her of the bag that held all the winds, opened by tired men within sight of the smoke of home. He told her of the witch in the wood who became a friend, and gave them back a whole year of rest. He told her of the country of the dead, and the old friends he met there who were past all harm now, and his own mother's face among them. He told her of the singers in the flowering meadow, whose song no man may hear and still sail on. He told her of the narrow water between the cliff and the whirlpool, and the toll that it took. He told her of the green island of the Sun, and the cattle he begged his hungry men to leave alone. He told her of the seven long years on the island at the very edge of everything, and the goddess there, and how he refused to stay, and built a raft with his own two hands to come away home. And he told her of the last kind kingdom of all, the seafaring people whose ships steer themselves by thought, who carried him home over the dark water while he slept. Each one a soft word in the dark. Her hand in his. Her breathing slowing between them. The whole enormous journey laid out small and done, there on the pillow, between two people who were never going to be parted again.
And he told her one thing more, last of all. The far thing. The promise made to him long ago, down in the country of the dead, by the old blind seer with the golden staff. That one day, years off yet, he would take up a good oar and carry it inland on his shoulder, away from the sea, walking, until he came at last to a people who had never tasted salt in their lives and did not know a ship from a plow. And there one of them would look at the oar on his shoulder and call it a winnowing fan, a tool for tossing the grain up into the wind. And there he would plant the oar upright in the ground, and make his peace with the sea at last. And that afterward, far away, at the very far end of a long full life, his own death would come to him gently, and easily, out of the sea or away from it, in a sleek and quiet old age, with his people prosperous and happy all around him. And she listened to that, the last and farthest promise of all, and she took it exactly the way it was meant, as a comfort, and not a grief. If the gods, she said, mean to grant us a gentler old age at the far end of everything, then there is hope yet that we will find our rest from all our troubles. Then the gods have promised us a kind old age. And on that word, at last, they slept, the two of them, in the bed rooted to the island, under the long night the goddess had made just exactly long enough.
The fire is low now.
It has done its hard work and its tender work both, and it is banked warm for the night, red and low and glowing, and the singer does not let it die. There is one night more.
The tide has come up close and kind while we talked. Closer tonight than it has come all season. Near enough now to hear it turning gently on the sand, saying its one soft word over and over to the shore, the word it says to every coast in the world at once. And far out on the dark water, if you look for it, a single sail waits at the edge of the morning, for a wind that has not yet come. It stands nearer than it did in the harder nights. Not here. Not yet. But nearer.
You do not have to carry any of it. Not the bow, not the axes, not the reckoning, not the long list of the road. Let it all stay here by the fire with the old singer, safe, where he keeps such things. The house is clean. The wife is found. The bed holds. The story is kept, whole, and it will be here whenever you want it.
There is a morning still to come after this night. Only one. And it is the gentlest of them all. There is an old man in an orchard on the high ground who does not know yet that his son is home. There is a grief down in the town that will want its answer, and the answer, when it comes, is peace. And there is a walk up through the autumn island in the early light, to a row of trees that a father once counted aloud over a small boy's head, waiting all this time to be counted again. But none of that is tonight. Tonight is only two people asleep in a bed that cannot be moved, and a night made long enough to hold them, and a fire banked warm on a quiet beach.
Rest now. The bow is at rest. The house breathes easy. The island kept, and kept, and kept, all the way to this hour. And the man who crossed the whole wide sea to reach it is asleep now in the heart of it, home.
The tide is in. The stars are old and kind. Your breathing has found the pace of the waves, or the waves have found yours, and it does not matter which. It is the same slow going out, the same easy coming back, and it will go on all night without you, faithfully, like everything else that loves you.
Sleep well, traveler.
Goodnight.